It never ENDS...............

Don't freak out seeing this title :).....................

Question is why do we fight?

Is it just because we are born to fight............................

We kill each other for every damn reason that exists in this world..........we kill for religion.........we kill for caste..........we kill for pride.............we kill for disgust.........we killllllllllllllllllllll

I looked at our history in search of some answers and of the little i know about history of mankind i see nothing that we could be proud of..............

We have always been the same.........we are our own enemy.....

We, from ages have been killing each other, be it the Trojan war to the latest war in Afghanistan...........we have drawn our own borders called kingdoms in the past and countries now.............they fought wars to conquer others.........and we do the same.


Its still the same.......the way we do it now may look different but believe you me we still do the same thing..............Osama Bin laden's ....George W bush are just symbols for it we are their strength............we are the people who try to put as much difference as possible between us and what happens in the real word...........they bank on our apathy............they bank on our willful ignorance............they plan strategies around it and we just play it into their hands........almost 90% of Democratic countries spend more than 50% of their wealth in Army hoping to protect themselves.................Who are we trying to protect ourselves from..........people cannot cross borders without permissions where is freedom............

We justify ourselves by saying "Blame me for it all..........blame me because i might just live the good life.......because i can..... because i am smart enough to........"

we just try to run away from it

We call for democracy, we crave for freedom and still we remain slaves.......slaves of our own wills and greeds.

World is still ruled by power..........politics remain the same.........World wars have come and gone..........we then start preparing for the next...........there is nothing that says its gonna change...........

What is that we need?

What has changed over the years...........WAR is still on and it never ENDS..............


Why do i write all this shit simply because i am always scared with voices in my head that keeps asking me awful questions like should i be doing more with my life.........am i making the most of my time in this planet.......i think all of us ask those type of questions and a lot of us are afraid of those answers.

All i am saying is that i am adult now and the tough thing about adulthood is it starts even before you know it starts...when you are already a dozen decisions into it..........what i need to know now is...............no life guard is watching me anymore.........i am on my own.............and the decisions i make now are years and years alone from here untill the end.

All i worte here is taken from conversations between a man in his adulthood called Todd and a professor called Doc.

Amazing thing about this is that i know the questions in that conversation even before they are asked and i know the answers even before they are said...............I have been there and iam still there..........i ask those questions and i ask them again and again.................in hope of answering them well some day.......

Signing off

Montoyaa